I Hope to Dance

This song came on at work tonight, and the only line that registered with my brain was "Don't let some hell bent heart Leave you bitter."  And once again, it felt like God was sending me a message.  This song, it's a well known song.  I loved it when it came out.  And when it came on the radio tonight at work, I was even humming along with it.  But I wasn't singing or thinking about the lyrics -- until that one line.  And I kind of just stopped in my tracks, with clothes in my hand.  And even though I've let go of a lot of my anger, I'm still bitter.  Bitter enough to be told by a strange guy at a bar "Stop being so angry". 

Maybe I'm not as anger-free as I thought.  I have truly come a long way in the past couple of months.  There's no boasting in that statement.  But perhaps my progress isn't as far along as I thought.  I still don't believe or trust guys.  I still think that pretty much everything they say is a lie.

Am I suppossed to just open up?  After all this?  Just... Open up?  I've been so let down, hurt, and disappointed, that I can't ever go back to the open hearted girl I was.  Who believed that each guy had such potential.  And yet, this one line is all I hear.  And I need to open up.  I need to really let go.  I need to stop being so angry.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance


I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance


(Time is a real and constant motion always)
(Rolling us along)
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)


(Time is a real and constant motion always)
(Rolling us along)
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)