Church -- Where is my heart?

This morning was an amazing day.  The weather was GORGEOUS -- mid 60's with low humidity and not a cloud in the sky.  It was a welcome change from the endless dreary skies and drizzle we've had to suffer through the last week and a half.  And church was just as wonderful -- worship was high energy and they did a couple extra songs (which I LOVEDDD -- worship is the glue that centers and focuses me into the lesson) and then the lesson was spot on.

Dave preached on Isaiah 58, and how the Israelite's celebrated Sabbath with the right actions but the wrong heart.  And how important it is for your heart to be in sync with your actions (and vice versa).  Dave emphasized that we need to evaluate where our heart is and what our heart is asking of us, because God doesn't just inspect our actions but he inspects our hearts more -- just like when he was selecting King David.  David did not look like a King (unlike his brothers), but he had a King's heart, which is why God chose David to be King, and not one of his brothers.

So where is my heart?  What is it calling me to do?

My heart is certainly after my job -- I am in the right career, just maybe not in the right position.  I feel unconnected and disinterested with acute care, but this last week when I was in Rehab, my heart soared for not only the job but for my patients and my coworkers.  I was in better moods and was more motivated than ever (even though I was working harder and longer than I would have been if I were in acute care).  So I'm on the right path with my job.

My heart is not content with my lifestyle.  It's ill at ease with the things I feed my body with... Yet I feed it those terrible things anyway.  My heart is yearning for change in this department, and I'm excited to report that I'm on my way in this journey.  And that's all I'm going to say about that right now.  :)

My heart is not pleased with my financial state.  Not at all.  I've let the world enter and take over my actions, and I've put things before goals.  Time to re-focus my decisions on money.  (Pulls out the old budget folder...)

My heart is anxious about marriage.  Anxious in a good way -- anxious ready.  However also anxious nervous, not so much about the getting married part, but about the uncertainty of where we will live.  Daniel's had a rough couple of weeks that may have put in jeopardy everything he's worked for in his job, which adds even another layer of concern.  Mostly because I recognize that Daniel's heart is not in his current position, as he yearns for another one.  His heart is not content which affects my heart.

But one thing my heart is definitely begging me to do is to spend more time with God; to deepen the relationship I have with Him and to enrich it through devotion, prayer, and study.  This is quite possibly one task that is the most intimidating to me.  Not because I don't think God cares, but because I know he will see the hidden side of me, the things that I'm not proud of.  Andy Stanley said once that the bigger our fall, the greater the grace.  And boy is that amazing and in-comprehensible all at the same time.

Holy Moly it's OCTOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!  I've got 11 months until I get married.  Two months until Christmas (eee!).  Cooler temperatures are on their way (can't wait to pull out the sweaters and comfy clothes and boots and scarves and hats and coats).

MumFest is this weekend (Kelley is visiting!).  The Bridge Run and the State Fair are the weekend after that.  Then about a month later will be Leah's graduation in Quantico (which also means a side trip to DC!!!! Hope the government shutdown is over by then...I've got memorials and museums to see!).

And amongst all this? Work work work work!  Have I mentioned that I'd love to have a third job?  I might be crazy, but I love to work. :)  I love to make progress towards financial goals.  And I have a lot of financial goals!

This is my life.  One event after another with work weeks in between.  Wouldn't have it anyother way!