Boys are weird. End of story. No shit Sherlock?
Chris texted me tonight. It began with "I miss you" and the night ended at 1:30am as us not just back together, but officially in a relationship. What a twisted crazy life I have.
I'm still hurt by what he did and how he handled it. I was dead-on about why it happened (fear), but it still hurt. And I still worry that it will happen again; that instead of us talking, he'll tuck tail and run. But he makes me happy. He makes me feel right. And that's a feeling that I haven't had in a long time. And that's something to take a chance for. It's a risk worth taking.
I hope I can quell the fear... I don't want his remaining time state-side to be focused on negativity. But I know it's something that will come up. And I know things won't go right back to the way they were... Some healing will have to take place as a couple. I just want to settle things so that we're all positive again before he leaves.
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