In My Life...

There are places I remember

All my life though some have changed

Some forever not for better

Some have gone and some remain

All these places had their moments

With lovers and friends I still can recall

Some are dead and some are living

In my life I've loved them all

 

Each line rings so true...  I have so many memories of my life; some plesant, some not so plesant.  Some I wish I could forget, and actively try not to remember.  Things I've done, things I've said, things that people have done to me, things that people have said to me.  There are memories of each category that I treasure; memories that are "not for better". 
 
Many people have cycled in and out of my life -- some withering like the leaves at Fall and abandoning me, some stubbornly hanging on through the bitter cold of winter and every other season.  Some have been evergreens; some have not.  I can look back and remember friends or lovers -- many of whom cycled out of my life.  But as the Beatles so wisely say: In my life I've loved them all.  Regardless of whether we were friends, girl friends, or lovers, I have loved everyone at some point in my life.  I recognize that they were a distinct part of me, helping to shape me in some way.  Whether it be with support, challenges, or time honored life lessons, they are a part of my life -- my past (and a few a part of my present!  Good friends are hard to come by, and I've cherished the ones I've made). 
 
I do not wish ill on any of the people that are no longer a part of my life, regardless of whether that were due to heartbreak or simple distance of hearts (again; this applies to friends and lovers).  I want them to all succeed, because that means a small part of me succeeds as well.  That I was a small part of their life, that helped shape them into who they are today.

 

 

But of all these friends and lovers

There is no one compares with you

And these memories lose their meaning

When I think of love as something new

Though I know I'll never lose affection

For people and things that went before

I know I'll often stop and think about them

In my life I love you more

I dedicate this verse to My Love, whoever he is, wherever he is, if he exists! :-p  No, but in all seriousness, I hope to some day be able to dedicate this verse to a special someone.  I pray that one day that person will materialize in my life and we will be friends.  Best friends.  Long before we date.  Or kiss.  Or love.

Patience is a virtue, they say.  And it's a quality I am trying to embrace.  To live.  To exude.  I know that wanting and wishing and dreaming of and desiring will only put off destiny.  Because I know that destiny only comes when you're not seeking it out.

So until he comes around, this song will randomly pop up on my iPod, and I'll reflect on those that I love, those that I have loved, and say a small prayer that someday I'll find someone special to love.