Other than visiting Daniel or my family, when was the last time I just got away in the past two years? Honestly, until this weekend, I hadn't just gotten away. Not until this weekend, anyway.
I was invited to ride along with my housemate/landlady to visit some mutual friends 2 hours away. I accepted the invitation, and as a surprise to me, my family deposited some surprise "fun money" into my account. Honestly -- every time that's happened before, I spent it on bills instead of fun. But this weekend? I spent some of it on some fun. WHAT a breath of fresh air. I hadn't been to the movies in months, and I went. I hadn't gone out to IHOP in months, and I went. I hadn't stepped foot inside a clothing store (other than the one I work at) in months, and I did (and enjoyed window shopping). It was just so nice. To get away. To enjoy good, quality company/friendships.
Jeanine, who we went to visit, made a funny statement regarding how things have been for me the last year -- "Fun? What's that?" And it's the damn truth. I had literally forgotten what it was like to allow myself to have some fun.
And now I realize what a priority it is. To allow yourself some time for fun. For friends (which I have not put as a priority and have honestly isolated myself from opening myself up to making friends -- all this stress has led me to constructing and maintaining a wall against friends).
So now I'd like to make a list of things I'd like to do around here for fun. So that I can fully experience this area while I'm here.
Fun -- who knew it was so important??
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