Today began horribly. It was suppossed to start wonderfully. I didn't have to work until 2pm today, so I could sleep in. Like really sleep in. I set my alarm for 11:50am so that if I did sleep in, I'd get up with plenty of time to get ready. But at 11:30am, I bolted upright in my bed, going from deep sleep to full consciousness in .29 seconds. Why? Because in my sleep I realized that I had 100% totally forgotten to go to my required advising meeting yesterday for school!
That's one of the worst feelings in the world for me -- realizing that you totally forgot a deadline or appointment. I instantly went from realization to freak out/panic attac/break down. I let myself feel every emotion I wanted to feel -- anger, disappointment, embarrasment, failure, sadness. I let the tears flow.
But ten minutes later, I had to take a deep breath and collect myself. Going on like this forever doesn't help a situation. You have to acknowledge these feelings and feel these feelings, but you can't dwell on them. I said a little prayer, calmed myself down, and moved on.
I wrote the director an email, apologizing profusely and letting her know when I could meet her to make it up.
Now? All I can do is wait. And hope that this one obstacle won't doom me. Wait for her response. Pray for a second chance. And do better about keeping my schedule straight!
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