Tonight my heart breaks for all the wonderful, beautiful women I know that are going through divorce... It seems to me that so many couples are going their separate ways this summer, and it just hurts. I hurt for them -- for the fear, the pain, the unknown, the betrayal, the lost love, the lost stability.
It takes two to tango, but those who I know in these situations -- they're the ones my heart and prayers go out to. For relief, healing, hope, and direction. For the priceless gift of laughter each day as a break from their tears and frustrations. To know that God loves them, and that they can do all things through Him.
It makes me scared of marriage. It makes me question all of it. It makes me wonder if the good couples are out there, and if Daniel and I will qualify as a "forever" or not. You hear scorned men and women say "Never get married," and you wonder if you should take that advice or not...
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
I Done Got Away
Other than visiting Daniel or my family, when was the last time I just got away in the past two years? Honestly, until this weekend, I hadn't just gotten away. Not until this weekend, anyway.
I was invited to ride along with my housemate/landlady to visit some mutual friends 2 hours away. I accepted the invitation, and as a surprise to me, my family deposited some surprise "fun money" into my account. Honestly -- every time that's happened before, I spent it on bills instead of fun. But this weekend? I spent some of it on some fun. WHAT a breath of fresh air. I hadn't been to the movies in months, and I went. I hadn't gone out to IHOP in months, and I went. I hadn't stepped foot inside a clothing store (other than the one I work at) in months, and I did (and enjoyed window shopping). It was just so nice. To get away. To enjoy good, quality company/friendships.
Jeanine, who we went to visit, made a funny statement regarding how things have been for me the last year -- "Fun? What's that?" And it's the damn truth. I had literally forgotten what it was like to allow myself to have some fun.
And now I realize what a priority it is. To allow yourself some time for fun. For friends (which I have not put as a priority and have honestly isolated myself from opening myself up to making friends -- all this stress has led me to constructing and maintaining a wall against friends).
So now I'd like to make a list of things I'd like to do around here for fun. So that I can fully experience this area while I'm here.
Fun -- who knew it was so important??
I was invited to ride along with my housemate/landlady to visit some mutual friends 2 hours away. I accepted the invitation, and as a surprise to me, my family deposited some surprise "fun money" into my account. Honestly -- every time that's happened before, I spent it on bills instead of fun. But this weekend? I spent some of it on some fun. WHAT a breath of fresh air. I hadn't been to the movies in months, and I went. I hadn't gone out to IHOP in months, and I went. I hadn't stepped foot inside a clothing store (other than the one I work at) in months, and I did (and enjoyed window shopping). It was just so nice. To get away. To enjoy good, quality company/friendships.
Jeanine, who we went to visit, made a funny statement regarding how things have been for me the last year -- "Fun? What's that?" And it's the damn truth. I had literally forgotten what it was like to allow myself to have some fun.
And now I realize what a priority it is. To allow yourself some time for fun. For friends (which I have not put as a priority and have honestly isolated myself from opening myself up to making friends -- all this stress has led me to constructing and maintaining a wall against friends).
So now I'd like to make a list of things I'd like to do around here for fun. So that I can fully experience this area while I'm here.
Fun -- who knew it was so important??
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